Dieses Gedicht hat mir meine liebe freundin sophie geschrieben.
ich find es wahnsinnig lieb von ihr schon mal weil sie mir dadurch so sehr hilft.
<3


das kleine mädchen geht durch die straßen
mit traurigem blick geht sie durch die nacht
der nasse boden der stadt spiegelt sich im licht der autoschein werfer
das kleine mädchen geht durch die nacht
die vergangenheit war soweit weg und holt sie trotzdem immer wieder ein
das kleine mädchen geht durch ihr leben
sie hat es aufgegeben und auch sich selbst
die geräusche der autos
der menschen die ihr so weh getan hatten und die nacht
sie bemerkt sie nciht mehr
Traurig,willenlos,lustlos,lieblos,TOT!!!!

ich musste an samstag abend in dieser nacht denken.i.wann um 2 oda 3 geschrieben
Für jemanden der es wohl nie lesen wird aber
wo diese zeilen wirklich alles aussagen.
dank domino hab ich eingesehen was ich wirklich will..
naja egal
....
ich hoffe dass ich es ihm i.wann mal zeigen kann.


eine Nacht hindurch träumte ich die Zeit weg
doch Stillstand bedeutet Untergang.
wenn das alles ein Spiel ist sind wir verloren
wenn nicht erst recht.
<3

Please kill me
before i do it by myself

i will be free
my pain will go awy
my life will fade away,
but i will love you for it


Please kill me
before i do it



you told me you will live for me
you told me you will bleed for me
you told me you would even die for me



well...it was all just a lie
Please kill me,
if u really love me


it wont hurt me
it hurts more to see you leaving
so kill me amd than walk away
so i can't see you hurt me again


i father die
than see you with her
ohh god it hurts so much


so kill me
it's not so painfull
as the pain that you do to me


As i told u, i love u
u said nothing


As u saw my wrist, and i told you i do it just for u
you laughed at me


As you saw me lying on th floor, lying in my own blood and a box of pills
you said nothing and went away


you went to her
yes, she will love you more than i did
yes, she wont ask you
"please kill me"


She will love you like i never did
maybe my heart was frozen

but deep inside
i loved u more than enything

yes she will love u more she will never ask you
"Please kill me"


But i asked you,
it was the only thing that i wanted,
but you laughed and refused



so i refused to live,
to live for YOU

Tonight, I can't live without you.
Tonight, I won´t live without you.

I know what scares me the most.

Being alone,
Being alive,
but feeling so... DEAD.
at least you’ll have my... HEART.

A single Silver Bullet,
Shot right through my heart.
To prove if I can survive,
Without you.

Can you sleep at night,
If I hold you tight.
I won't let you go.

Please don't leave this... TIME.
At least you’ll have my... HEART.

time is running out.

Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight.
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I can't leave this all behind

I don't know who you really are
But now somehow you're breaking my heart
It's why I'm feeling alive
It's the first time
Hoping this night won't end

I won't forget you when we're not together.
I don't know what to do
I need ten more minutes with you
Tonight I´m hoping this pain will end
This is the ending, here's my surrender.

Let's try to remember these day back
Our lives were very different
I was lonely when we first met
A small upstairs apartment
Driving through the darkness to get back home
Before they knew you were even gone

You don't have to speak because I can hear your heartbeat
Fluttering like butterflies
You don't have to cover up how you feel when you're in love
I'll always know I'm not enough to even make you think

I miss you so much, a self-inflicted coma
And when I feel the stress, I'm lonely and depressed


Please, slow down,
We're moving way too fast for the world
We've gotta make this last
I know it hurts to feel so all alone
I'm by myself, more then you could know

If only they were all alone...
They were all alone...

Let's try to remember these day back
Our lives were very different
I was lonely when we first met
A small upstairs apartment
Driving through the darkness to get back home
Before they knew you were even gone

You don't have to speak because I can hear your heartbeat
Fluttering like butterflies
You don't have to cover up how you feel when you're in love
I'll always know I'm not enough to even make you think

I miss you so much, a self-inflicted coma
And when I feel the stress, I'm lonely and depressed


Please, slow down,
We're moving way too fast for the world
We've gotta make this last
I know it hurts to feel so all alone
I'm by myself, more then you could know

If only they were all alone...
They were all alone...

mood: singing my soul out
listen to: Beat your heart oout- The Distillers


War in Steyr, hab ziemlich viel gelesen (A long way down- Nick Hornby) Viel Musik gehört und die welt verflucht.
Es hat ein riesen gewitter gegeben was total cool war. ich bin im garten gesessen und war von oben bis unten nass...dannach hab ich mich beim ofen aufgewärrmt aber es war einfach ein gefühl der freiheit.

Morgen fahr ich zum Ikea, meinen Kasten kaufen!! :)
Freu mich schon total auf morgen- Halloween. werd mich ein bissi halloween mäßig ankleiden.

Jetzt noch ein paar Textzeilen.

"Lonely World of a raw rocker searching for his paradise lost."

"At night, when all the colours die, they hide in pairs, and read about themselves in colour, with their eyelids shut."

"Wanting to die seems like it might be a part of being alive"

"He broke my heart. You´ll remember someone who broke your heart and you will think to yourself, Oh yes, I can remember how that feels. You might remember listen to music and eating chocolates in your room.
But can you remember carving his initials in your arm with a kitchen knife? Can you remember standing to close to the edge of an Underground platform? No? Well, fucking shut up then!"

"Why do you have to fuck up everything I do?"

"Ich habe mein äußeres Verletzt um mein Inneres zu töten und trotzdem tut es noch immer weh!"

Ein teil stammt von mir selbst, in einer kreativen Phase, der andere Teil ist aus büchern und songs zusammen getragen, aber repräsentiert was ich fühle und denke.

ach ich liebe das Programm zum Bilder bearbeiten am Mac. Man kann so coole Sachen machen. Ich würde auch gerne noch mehr Fotos bearbeiten aber ich finde keine guten mehr. Aber trotzdem schaut euch mal diese an: